I no longer have the energy for meaningless friendships, forced interactions or unnecessary conversations. If we don’t vibrate on the same frequency there’s just no reason for us to waste our time. I’d rather have no one and wait for substance than to not feel someone and fake the funk.
I’m extending this mindset to my familial relationships right now too. My dad responded to my email with nothing but childish defensiveness and outright ad hominem attacks. I saw no evidence that he even listened or considered my feelings and opinions as valid. As such, I’m taking some time off from that relationship and not planning to talk to him for a while. I have to focus on the relationships that feel supportive and bring me feelings of recognition and joy, and right now my relationship with my father isn’t doing any of that, so bump it. I’m not forcing shit.