A thing might happen that [Booskie] thought I would be upset about.
I wasn’t upset at all. Meta-feeling number 1: I was quite surprised by how not-upset I was.
As I was starting to respond, I got a phone call telling me, “Hey come upstairs for this 2 hour meeting that wasn’t on your calendar that you are now late to.”
*spends a not-insubstantial portion of the parts of this meeting that were irrelevant to her wondering if the shortness of her response due to the aforementioned phone call made it less than believable that she wasn’t upset*
*sends a cute email the gist of which was like, ‘but no really it’s cool because reasons.’
*re-reads email after sending it* which prompts meta-feeling number 2: I’m proud of my reaction to this because it means that things I have been worried about happening in my head against my will in light of current circumstances aren’t happening and that makes me go yay.
His reaction suggests that my tendency to overthink absolutely everything at least sometimes leads to me doing things that can be interpreted as thoughtful. That is somehow deeply satisfying.
This post has been the vaguest.