Day 6: Smothered #30Layers30Days

Our lives are full of demands. 

We are often more occupied with what other people need from us and what we are expected to do, than with what we need to do for ourselves — to the extent that we feel guilty for taking time and energy for ourselves.

What people and things are making it hard for you to breathe right now?

The first thing that comes to mind is work. An interview I was supposed to be conducting got cancelled at almost the last minute on Friday, and all I felt was this immense wave of relief. I told JJ that I could breathe easier as soon as that happened. “Feast or famine” is a term I’ve heard used to describe workloads at my company, and right now my plate is definitely overflowing. I’m scrambling to keep things from falling off and getting lost.

More generally, if we can broaden this to things that aren’t necessarily affecting me heavily at this exact moment, but which have reared their heads recently or are likely to do so again in the near future: money. The upcoming holidays. Not feeling like I know what I want or what I want to do. The intersections of all three of those things.


About alaiyo0685

I'm a kind of quirky, pretty stubborn, way too opinionated, twenty-something, intellectual, introspective, queer, Black, female, in a polyamorous relationship, and this is where I try to figure out my life.

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