If they knew __________ , they would know why I __________.
(Interpret this however you like.)
If they knew how much I craved nurturing when I was growing up, they would know why I try to play that role in so many of my relationships now. I try to be the caretaker I needed for myself and for the people I love.
If they knew how many times I didn’t have food in the kitchen or the electricity or the water got cut off due to non-payment in my childhood, they would know why I’ll do whatever I can to not let money fuck up the lives of the people I love.
If they knew how often I felt like an outsider, totally alone, they would know why I value being a “we,” a “team,” so much.
If they knew how often I was rejected for being too much or too intense, how often I’ve been told to turn it down a notch, they would know why I’m so scared of vulnerability sometimes. They might even get why I feel like I have to do it.