This too is a truth I am forcing myself to be more forthcoming about; that I am prideful. That I am bullheaded. That I do not, cannot seem to ask people to fill the gaps that I myself cannot cover. That I feel shame for needing, wanting help. That I feel like a failure for not being able to tend to myself and everyone else too. And that I am just as much to blame for being the sole proprietor of The Emotional State of La as the people who have failed me.